Waiting for today...: Taming the Chaos...

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Wednesday, April 23

Taming the Chaos...



The Grand Lucayan resort in Freeport Bahamas overlooking the Caribbean ocean…



Days off are a hustle and bustle to scratch every task off my to-do list while trying to be social and carve out “me” time.  That balance I so desperately need is still in the distance… unattainable it seems, at times. I first begin to feel overwhelmed.  Next I fear the that the darkness will find me again.  Then I pause and remember that I cannot always trust my feelings.  I take a deep breath, re-shuffle the “to-do deck”, find my priorities and continue on leaving my emotions behind.  My current priority: the laundry… It’s getting done!  Therefore my room is beginning to look as though a civilized person sleeps there.  Although I’m still sleeping in the living room.



As a child, I remember being fascinated by everything around me.  I took to drawing early, trying to capture those things.  My earliest remembrance of this fascination is from elementary school.  Instead of paying attention in class, I went about trying to recreate a design I saw on a hand-woven bag.  My creativity has waxed and waned since then.  As I grew up and became aware of cameras, my interest shifted from drawings to photos.  It never evolved beyond pointing and shooting however.  And just as I lost my passion for drawing and “less than amateur” photography, I lose my desire to write from time to time.  I am almost certain it is related to my instability.  So on days like this, when I’m speechless and lacking or time simply eludes me, I’ll share instead one of my photos in hopes to somehow keep my diminished creative flow from dying altogether.