Waiting for today...: Wednesday the 31st: What A Difference A Year Makes…

Wednesday, December 31

Wednesday the 31st: What A Difference A Year Makes…



Welcome gate, Magic Kingdom theme park at Walt Disney World
in Orlando, Florida




Indeed!


This time last year I was knee deep in the worst acute episode of depression since college. It was also the first time I seriously sought therapy.  Although that episode would last almost a year, I’m happy to say that when it was finally over I was more hopeful than I had been in sometime; two whole years to be exact.  


I would find  myself depressed again a few months later.  Except this time it would be of a shorter duration and with less clean-up post-acute.  These setbacks left me with a little over a year to live peaceably.  Well, as much as I could while simultaneously trying to sort through and put the pieces

of my life together.
   
Nonetheless I can honestly say that it has been an amazing year.  I’ve learned so much about myself.  I’ve been thee most gentle with myself than I have ever been.  This gentleness is helping me to get through this very taxing process.  I’m embracing my awkwardness as well as those areas in which I am most weak.  Being honest… accepting… learning to no longer be embarrassed or ashamed of the person that I am.  The latter has been the most difficult but I know that it will no doubt be most rewarding so for it I am thankful and grateful.   Equally difficult is recognizing my strengths and being confident yet humble in them.  I’ve got a long way to go in this area but optimism is fueling me.

2014 will soon be a memory.  Still in a period of normalcy, I’m super stoked that I’ve survived these holidays.  I welcome the new year with anticipation… hope… Even more hard work is a head of me.  What is the saying: when you know better you do better?  

In 2015, I’m going to do better.