Waiting for today...: Good Times

Thursday, March 19

Good Times

Garden Cafe, Sentara Princess Anne Hospital, Virginia Beach VA

I haven't had much to say as of late.  And I've vowed in moments like these I would remain silent.  To  make any other choice would also be to choose to once again pressure myself to be someone I can’t.  Yes!  I’m finally putting what I've learned into practice.  And it’s not too far from becoming organic!  I've been in such a peculiar state of mind lately.  Sure, I've been keeping my head above water… not making too many waves.  And you what?  I've been beyond content with that… beyond content with just, being.  It's like nothing I've experienced in the last few years. There is a calm that has settled over me... not something I can easily explain.  I would call it nonchalance, except I have been very enthusiastic in certain areas.  Travel, for instance.  I haven’t been anywhere yet but I've been having the best time planning.  Other area's?  Eh, not so much.  I'm still not having any success in executing a daily self-care regimen.  But just like in my professional life, I’ll have to continue to make adjustments with the intention of working smarter... not harder.  Until then, I intend to have no worries.  Beyond content am I.  Right now, I’m just enjoying this sense of freedom I have… even if whispers of pessimism say it won’t last.  I’m learning to block those out too!